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~April

Sunday, October 21, 2012

Goober and the Piano

So, for the last 4 months Goober has been fighting practicing his piano... He's very good for the short amount of time he has been playing and I hated to see him quit so soon on something that I feel he will enjoy knowing how to do later. So I told him I would let him quit if he finished his recital and still didn't want to do it. I didn't want it to be a snap decision.

Anyways, last night was his recital. He did pretty well for a 9 year old that has only been playing for about a year. 



So this morning he says to me "Mom, I want to keep doing piano." when I asked him why he said "I want to be able to play like those last two kids!".

Color me happy.

Tuesday, August 14, 2012

Crazy Handy

Yesterday was a classic Monday... not only because it actually was Monday, but because it was Caaaaaaarrrraaaazy busy.

I bribed the children with a reward if they were good while I dragged them along on all of my errands and they were FANTASTIC!!! My kids really are good kids. I'm lucky to have them.

Goober has been asking for a new robot kit for a while now and since we were at the hobby store to get a gift for a friend I picked one up for him as well.

He built the whole thing by himself with me only helping him get some of the plastic burrs off of the pieces!





P.S. I know his hair is waaaaaaay long, I'm planning to get it trimmed up asap!

Monday, July 30, 2012

Nutters

I find it so amusing the things that people connect sometimes!

Example: "because President Obama has a Kenyan side of his family he can't be American."

Today I had someone try to convince me that Ayaan Hirsi Ali is pro banning the teaching of evolution in schools. When I asked for them to support their conclusion they sited the instance of the Discovery Institute (which supports the teaching of creationism in schools) sponsoring a speaker who later ended up becoming president of the American Enterprise Institute (which Ali is a fellow of) as proof that she supports all things Discovery Institute...

Ummm....

First, if you don't know who Ayaan Hirsi Ali is I suggest you look her up. She is an amazing woman in my opinion. She escaped an arranged marriage and the subjugation to the male members of her family and country of origin as well as (in her opinion) the oppression on the Muslim religion. She ended up being a highly influential Dutch politician and was targeted by Muslims who felt that her leaving of the Muslim religion and her open criticism of it as warranting death. She wrote a great book called "Infidel". Good book.

Anyways, she ended up as an atheist and continues to fight things like female genital mutilation to this day. She highly values education and choice and feels that many religions are openly hostile to those things.

She is a fellow at the American Enterprise Institute (this is a conservative think tank).

The American Enterprise Institute is a notably conservative think tank but no where that I can find does it support suppression of science. If you can find it, let me know. Though I don't agree with it's stances generally, I don't find them openly hostile to science/evolution or any more religious that many other groups.

Now, you have to know what the Discovery Institute is to get where the connection comes in. The Discovery Institute is another think tank that is best known for it's advocacy of Intelligent Design. It is openly hostile to anything that doesn't support the Christian viewpoint.

So let me draw the lines this person was trying to convince me supported their stance. In 2006 the Discovery Institute sponsored a speaker who went to visit the American Enterprise Institute as a visiting fellow. This person, in 2008, became the president of the American Enterprise Institute.

So because Ali is a fellow at AEI she must support the stances of the Discovery Institute because at one time they sponsored the now president of AEI.

Anyone see a problem here?

First, just because you generally support an organization doesn't mean you support everything they do. Second, just because an organization sponsors a person doesn't mean that person supports everything that organization does.
and Third, even IF a president of an organization holds an opinion it does not mean that the whole organization holds that opinion.

It's just to far fetched for me... am I missing something or is this person seeing connections where their really aren't any?

Is Kevin Bacon a radical Jihadist because he can be linked to one??? Oh, poor Kevin... he's linked to a bunch of nutters!!!

Sunday, July 29, 2012

Boating


Today my parents took us boating! Yay, I love boating... there is just something about the way that the water hits to side of the boat and the sound of the engine that is just completely relaxing. It's always been that way too! My mom says that when I was a baby a sure way to get me to sleep was to put me on their bed (they had a Bayliner at the time with a cabin that had a bed in the very front) and the motion of the boat would put me to sleep.

Today was perfect! We went to Palisades Lake which is near the Idaho/Wyoming boarder. No idea why it is called Palisades though... apparently a palisade is a cliff and (to me anyways) there wasn't much that qualified as a "cliff". Now Lake Powell? THAT has CLIFFS! Anyways, back to what I was getting at...It was just hot enough that getting in the water was enticing and the water was warm enough that your body would adjust to it fairly quickly. The water was smooth and clear enough that Turbo was concerned about "falling" when it was time to swim.

The kids had a blast tubing and each of them took a turn going "solo".

I love the fact that they are getting old enough to do that! Goober even asked to try wake boarding! Unfortunately a sneaky storm snuck in and started to make the water choppy so I had to tell him that next time he could try that. Now, you have to understand, of all of my children Goober is my cautious one. He hates the feel of butterflies in his stomach and freaks out a little when he gets that sensation, he is always the one that is most concerned with safety. While being brave has pros and cons - you learn new things but might break a few bones on the way, so does being cautious -you are less likely to hurt yourself but also less likely to have amazing experiences because you don't want to go out of your comfort zone. I was amazed at how brave he was on the tube (dad got going pretty fast and Goober even got outside the wake!) and it gives me a lot of hope that even though he is cautious he can still put that aside at times.

Overall, it was a really good day. :)

Sunday, July 22, 2012

Well, That Helped!

Hi, I know a couple of posts ago I was frustrated and at my wits end with my eldest child. Thought I would update...

So before we would have the kids all bath and go through a big long bedtime routine (which helped them calm down when they were younger)... I decided that I would try having Goober do most of his daily maintenance in the morning instead and see if that worked. I also decided that I needed to start waking them up before 9:30am, not only to prep them for school (I KNOW!!! It's sneaking up on me!! one month away... meh!) but also to try to help Missy with her insomnia by getting her up and out in the light earlier - hopefully this will help reset her internal clock.

Holy crapola did it help! 

Now he gets up, get's breakfast, goes and practices piano (a huge frustration before) while waiting for his siblings to finish showering, then takes his shower and does all his other daily stuff. 

In the evening I simply have them go and get PJ's on and then a read a chapter of Harry Potter to them and off to bed they go. There is still a bit of talking, but if I hear them I simply open their bedroom door and leave it open. 

I was making this WAY WAY harder than it needed to be!!! 

I just started waking them up earlier today, mostly because my sister was at my parents house this morning and I wanted to be sure the kids saw their cousins etc... Besides, I just plane like hanging out with my sister! Anyways, tomorrow will be the second day of waking them up early, hopefully it will go like today - in that Missy was fairly cooperative - then again, she was excited to see her cousins and that is a good motivator!

I'm not nearly as frustrated as I was... hopefully this lasts! 

Expelliarmus!!!
P.S. the family councilor never called back... guess I will be calling a different one. I don't want one that doesn't return calls anyways (one of my pet peeves).

Thursday, July 19, 2012

Why I have no issue with my son's fascination with all things Harry Potter.

So, anyone that has talked to my eldest in the last... oh, 2 years? Knows that he is a major Harry Potter fan. Major. 


While it can get annoying at times (Expellaramus!!!!) I'm very happy that if he was going to be enamored with a story it is at least one that has really good lessons in it. Many of them are even one liners! 


I love, love, LOVE what J.K. Rowling says about the books: "The Potter books in general are a prolonged argument for tolerance, a prolonged plea for an end to bigotry" 


Everyone has their favorite characters of course... and boy is it a hard choice! They were all so well created. I love Ms. Weasley's fierce defense of those she loves, and Neville Longbottom's amazing bravery and loyalty, Sirius Black's desparation yet undeniable goodness... then there is Tonks, Lupin, and Luna as well. My goodness... I have to say they are all my favorite! 


So on with the HP quotes! :)


You think the dead we loved ever truly leave us? You think that we don’t recall them more clearly than ever in times of great trouble? Your father is alive in you, Harry, and shows himself plainly when you have need of him.
- Quote by Albus Dumbledore



Indeed, your failure to understand that there are things much worse than death has always been your greatest weakness.
- Quote from Dumbledore to Voldermort



If you want to know what a man’s like, take a good look at how he treats his inferiors, not his equals.
- Quote by Sirius Black



To the well-organized mind, death is but the next great adventure.
- Quote by Albus Dumbledore



We must try not to sink beneath our anguish, Harry, but battle on.
- Quote by Albus Dumbledore



It is the unknown we fear when we look upon death and darkness, nothing more.
- Quote by Albus Dumbledore



People find it far easier to forgive others for being wrong than being right.
- Quote by Albus Dumbledore



It does not do to dwell on dreams and forget to live.
- Quote by Albus Dumbledore



Age is foolish and forgetful when it underestimates youth.
- Quote from Dumbledore to Harry



When you have seen as much of life as I have, you will not underestimate the power of obsessive love.
- Quote by Albus Dumbledore



It takes a great deal of bravery to stand up to our enemies, but just as much to stand up to our friends.
- Quote by Albus Dumbledore



Fear of a name increases fear of the thing itself.
- Quote by Albus Dumbledore



You sort of start thinking anything’s possible if you’ve got enough nerve.
- Quote by Ginny Weasley



It is our choices… that show what we truly are, far more than our abilities.
- Quote by Albus Dumbledore



Never trust anything that can think for itself if you can’t see where it keeps its brain.
- Quote by Arthur Weasley



As much money and life as you could want! The two things most human beings would choose above all – the trouble is, humans do have a knack of choosing precisely those things that are worst for them.
- Quote by Albus Dumbledore



Indifference and neglect often do much more damage than outright dislike.
-
Quote by Albus Dumbledore
Youth cannot know how age thinks and feels. But old men are guilty if they forget what it was to be young.
- Quote by Albus Dumbledore


Numbing the pain for a while will make it worse when you finally feel it. - Quote by Albus Dumbledore

Then there is my all-time favorite quote: 


"The world is not split into good people and Death Eaters. We've all got both light and dark inside us. What matters is the part we choose to act on. That's who we really are." - Sirius Black.


There are definitely more destructive things to be enthralled with! 

Monday, July 16, 2012

Maybe someone else can do better...

I don't know what to do anymore...

Here is tonight's scenario: Go through bedtime routine, Turbo gets a bath then I read a chapter of Harry Potter to the kids. Once that is done Missy hops in the bath and Turbo goes to bed. When Missy is done with her bath Goober has the option of getting in the shower or hanging out until I get Missy's hair combed and then off to bed for both of them.

All three kids share a bedroom. Not ideal, but it's what we have. We ask the kids to be quiet due to Turbo already being asleep and then head to our room.

Here we hope that everyone goes to sleep without too much trouble...

Soon we hear voices, so I go into their room and remove Goober (because he was talking the loudest) and tell Missy that it was not okay to be out of her bed (she was on Goobers bed and they were loudly pretending something.) Tell Goober to lay on couch in the hall (this is the only option we have for removing one of them outside of putting them in our room which would then leave us with no where to go).

Goober proceeds to complain about the blanket I gave him. So I tell him to pick another one, there are several already in the hallway. I go back to my room, but first turn on the Sentsy because I know that the dark really bugs my kids.

Soon after closing the door I hear something hitting the couch.

Jer goes out and asks Goober why he is hitting the couch, to which Goober refuses to respond. I ask Goober if he wants to be in trouble, to which he says no. I tell him that his actions say otherwise. He complains about the blanket again. Again we tell him to pick another one if he wants. We tell him to stop hitting the couch, and warn him that he will be in trouble if we have to come back out and then we go back to our room.

...

Goober starts hitting the couch again.

Both Jer and I go out. Both of us are significantly pissed by now, as this type of thing is not a rare occurrence. I had hope that an adjustment of his medication would help and it did seem to for a bit, but not long.

Jer informs Goober he is grounded from the train track toy (he is already grounded from video games etc for 3 more weeks due to his insistence to misbehave even after being grounded from them for a week etc....), I tell him he is grounded from TV. I also tell him that I don't believe him when he says he doesn't want to be in trouble because his actions say otherwise. We go back to our room.

...

Goober starts hitting the couch again.

Jer and I discuss and decide that Goober needs to go in the backyard for a little while (when he insists on misbehaving sometimes this works, he can come back in when he is ready to behave) and spanking him only ends up with a lot of yelling on his part and he STILL insists on being aggravating.  Goober states that going outside is fun on the way out (I'm sure trying to goad Jer and I).

Jer takes him outside.

I had kind of hoped it would be raining, it wasn't.

After a bit they come back inside and Goober lays down on the couch again.

...

That is where we are right now.

I'm so tired of this. I really don't know what to do. It wouldn't be such a big deal if it didn't happen so often (with slight variations). I'm so worried that he will end up not caring about anything in life, at the same time I need to teach him that his actions have consequences. I don't know why he wants us mad at him and it breaks my heart at the same time because I feel like a failure as a parent. I love him, but at the same time I don't want him when he acts like this and want to hand him off to someone else to raise. I feel incredibly guilty for feeling that way towards my own child, but again I feel like a failure so maybe someone else could do better with him? I have shed many tears over this.

I called a family councilor today to try to make an appointment but he was out to lunch and hasn't called back yet.

Like life isn't hard enough right now without this too.

I hate this.

Sunday, July 15, 2012

Grandma Jones

Last night my dad called to tell me that my Grandma J had passed away. This is my dad's mom.

I wasn't very close to my dad's parent's growing up, and honestly we didn't live close to any of my grandparents so it was really my immediate family that I was close to, nevertheless I still remember and loved a lot about my Grandma J.

My grandma loved food storage... almost a little too much (she was human)! She had all sorts of recipes for all sorts of different things and really seamed to love to cook (which I admire because I really hate it lol!). She loved camping and being out in nature. She knew all sorts of songs and nursery rhymes and had the poem "Paul Revere's Ride" memorized and holy CRAP that thing is long, but she had it! She would often exclaim "Good Night!" as a kosher expletive around family and would often pull her hair back into a pony tail with curls around her face (when it was long enough). She loved her religion and clung to it with all her might.

At one point I know she was a concert pianist and I remember as a child watching her type faster than the typewriter could print. She loved children and always had candy in her pocket for the Primary kids... in fact those kids would stop by her house years later just to say "hi" and get a candy :D

The last few years she has had a rough time, be it a broken foot that won't seam to heal, frustrations with her memory, to other medical complications. I know her kids have had disagreements as to what was best for her and that my aunt has taken care of her more and more.

I know my dad has just wanted what was best for her and that at times his siblings disagreed and fought each other and him tooth and nail, but I also know that she was my dad's mom and that I can only imagine the heartache I would feel if my own mom passed away.

My heart aches for him,

I love you dad, I have no idea if there is anything I can do to ease the pain even a little... if there was I would surely do it.

For anyone who doesn't know the poem Pail Revere's Ride I'm including it below.



Paul Revere's Ride

by Henry Wadsworth Longfellow

Listen, my children, and you shall hear
Of the midnight ride of Paul Revere,
On the eighteenth of April, in Seventy-Five:
Hardly a man is now alive 
Who remembers that famous day and year.

He said to his friend, "If the British march
By land or sea from the town to-night,
Hang a lantern aloft in the belfry-arch
Of the North-Church-tower, as a signal-light,--
One if by land, and two if by sea;
And I on the opposite shore will be,
Ready to ride and spread the alarm
Through every Middlesex village and farm,
For the country-folk to be up and to arm."

Then he said "Good night!" and with muffled oar
Silently rowed to the Charlestown shore,
Just as the moon rose over the bay,
Where swinging wide at her moorings lay
The Somerset, British man-of-war:
A phantom ship, with each mast and spar
Across the moon, like a prison-bar,
And a huge black hulk, that was magnified 
By its own reflection in the tide.

Meanwhile, his friend, through alley and street
Wanders and watches with eager ears, 
Till in the silence around him he hears 
The muster of men at the barrack door,
The sound of arms, and the tramp of feet, 
And the measured tread of the grenadiers 
Marching down to their boats on the shore.

Then he climbed to the tower of the church,
Up the wooden stairs, with stealthy tread,
To the belfry-chamber overhead,
And startled the pigeons from their perch
On the sombre rafters, that round him made
Masses and moving shapes of shade,--
By the trembling ladder, steep and tall,
To the highest window in the wall,
Where he paused to listen and look down
A moment on the roofs of the town,
And the moonlight flowing over all.

Beneath, in the churchyard, lay the dead, 
In their night-encampment on the hill, 
Wrapped in silence so deep and still 
That he could hear, like a sentinel's tread, 
The watchful night-wind, as it went 
Creeping along from tent to tent, 
And seeming to whisper, "All is well!" 
A moment only he feels the spell 
Of the place and the hour, and the secret dread 
Of the lonely belfry and the dead; 
For suddenly all his thoughts are bent 
On a shadowy something far away, 
Where the river widens to meet the bay, --
A line of black, that bends and floats 
On the rising tide, like a bridge of boats.

Meanwhile, impatient to mount and ride, 
Booted and spurred, with a heavy stride, 
On the opposite shore walked Paul Revere.
Now he patted his horse's side, 
Now gazed on the landscape far and near, 
Then impetuous stamped the earth, 
And turned and tightened his saddle-girth;
But mostly he watched with eager search 
The belfry-tower of the old North Church, 
As it rose above the graves on the hill, 
Lonely and spectral and sombre and still.
And lo! as he looks, on the belfry's height, 
A glimmer, and then a gleam of light!
He springs to the saddle, the bridle he turns, 
But lingers and gazes, till full on his sight 
A second lamp in the belfry burns!

A hurry of hoofs in a village-street,
A shape in the moonlight, a bulk in the dark, 
And beneath from the pebbles, in passing, a spark 
Struck out by a steed that flies fearless and fleet: 
That was all! And yet, through the gloom and the light, 
The fate of a nation was riding that night; 
And the spark struck out by that steed, in his flight, 
Kindled the land into flame with its heat.

He has left the village and mounted the steep,
And beneath him, tranquil and broad and deep,
Is the Mystic, meeting the ocean tides;
And under the alders, that skirt its edge,
Now soft on the sand, now load on the ledge,
Is heard the tramp of his steed as he rides.

It was twelve by the village clock
When he crossed the bridge into Medford town.
He heard the crowing of the cock, 
And the barking of the farmer's dog, 
And felt the damp of the river-fog,
That rises when the sun goes down.

It was one by the village clock,
When he galloped into Lexington. 
He saw the gilded weathercock 
Swim in the moonlight as he passed, 
And the meeting-house windows, blank and bare, 
Gaze at him with a spectral glare, 
As if they already stood aghast 
At the bloody work they would look upon.

It was two by the village clock,
When be came to the bridge in Concord town. 
He heard the bleating of the flock, 
And the twitter of birds among the trees, 
And felt the breath of the morning breeze
Blowing over the meadows brown.
And one was safe and asleep in his bed
Who at the bridge would be first to fall,
Who that day would be lying dead,
Pierced by a British musket-ball.

You know the rest. In the books you have read,
How the British Regulars fired and fled,--
How the farmers gave them ball for ball,
From behind each fence and farmyard-wall,
Chasing the red-coats down the lane,
Then crossing the fields to emerge again
Under the trees at the turn of the road,
And only pausing to fire and load.

So through the night rode Paul Revere;
And so through the night went his cry of alarm
To every Middlesex village and farm,-- 
A cry of defiance, and not of fear,
A voice in the darkness, a knock at the door,
And a word that shall echo forevermore!
For, borne on the night-wind of the Past,
Through all our history, to the last,
In the hour of darkness and peril and need,
The people will waken and listen to hear
The hurrying hoof-beats of that steed,
And the midnight message of Paul Revere.

Saturday, July 14, 2012

Hiking?

Grandpa J with my kidlets
So after our camping expedition with my parents last weekend I'm seriously considering insisting that my family start hiking. Seriously.

I know I'm out of shape and since I put my gym membership on hold (they STILL haven't finished the larger facility they have been promising for over a year!) I really think that this may be a good way to get into shape while getting my kids involved so that hopefully they can develop healthy lifestyles (and also tolerance for wildlife, bugs, and temperature changes).

I really don't want to have to purchase maps so I started doing a little research myself. The BLM has a short trail not far from here that I think I will drag everyone to... probably tomorrow, if the weather will permit -there is a 50% chance of rain (I really wish they would indicate if it would be heavy or light rain!).

Anywho... we shall see :D

Besides, there ARE some Geocaches on the way... Mwahahaha!

Friday, July 13, 2012

Stupid People *snicker*

I think I need to take a break from Facebook for a while... I am so tired of seeing sound clips that try to sum up the worlds problems and how we should view them in a single line. I'm sorry, no real problem is simple enough to sum up that way. There are always two sides to every story and completely ignoring one of them for convenience is absurd.

I'm great with people disagreeing with me if they can remain civil while we disagree, however during an election year that's a pretty darned rare thing. I don't usually comment on political posts online for just that reason, I'm tired of the ad hominim attacks and people insisting that I don't know what I'm talking about. I happened to foolishly try to disagree on FB today and because it's been so long since someone online has attacked me it really made me mad.

I am not stupid. Yes, I don't know everything... so teach me! Don't tell me to take a class or read a book, cause honestly I'm not going to do that when "you" are being a complete ass about it. In fact, your insistance on it make me LESS likely to do as you suggest because I'm stubborn like that and hate to feel forced into anything.

Grrrr.

George Washington didn't want the American people to section themselves into an "us" and "them" because he felt it would be the downfall of the nation. He was mostly talking about political parties. As a watch how people treat others who disagree with them I have to agree with him... the divisiveness will be the downfall of our nation. We are killing our national spirit from within.

Let see how good I am about staying away from FB for a while... LOL.

Here's some pictures just for fun... cause I felt the post needed some, but didn't have anything that really went along :)





Turbo after he discovered how to take pictures of himself on my Ipod.

Thursday, July 12, 2012

Not much

Today was pretty chill and uneventful so I give you this:

it's a picture taken of Jer and Turbo on June 30th (when my parents town did their fireworks, and so we celebrated then). I have to say... I really like this picture, and if you don't.... well. You can suck it!!! :D

Wednesday, July 11, 2012

Treasure Hunting

I don't know about you, but my kids... they love video games and electronics! They love the Wii, and the PS3, and the 3DS, and the Ipod, and the computer, and anything else with buttons and a blinky screen ... even legos are more exciting than outside! And this is good in the case of not being left behind by technology and hand-eye coordination, BUT, well... lets just say it's not so good for getting out in the sun and exercising. 

It's summer darnit! They need to ride their bike, and run around, and play tag in the backyard, and draw all over the driveway in chalk! I don't expect them to do these types of things every day, but I don't expect a fight when I suggest them (or, let's be honest, when I INSIST that they get OUTSIDE for a change). 

Sooooo I asked my sis (who has amazingly active kiddos) what she would suggest because, honestly, I need to get out too and I would eventually like to end up hiking and backpacking overnight with the family! but there is no hope of this if they continue to be squirmy about any bug (oh. my. goodness. It's a teeny tiny FLY! It won't hurt you!) and about slight variations in temperature! her suggestion?


I tried it with just my kids a few weeks ago but didn't have much luck. We found the Geocache... I just didn't have luck with the complainy-ness of the kidlets. "It's hoooooottttt" (it was warm but geesh, we were only outside for about 20 minutes!), "My legs are tired!" (after walking one block in a subdivision?), "I have to pee!" (We've only been gone from the house for 3 minutes!!!). Mind you this was all from ONE child. Grrrrr.

So I let it slide for a while. 

Then yesterday, as I was babysitting the 5 extra kiddos, I needed to go pick up one of them from summer school. The other kids wanted to go to a park. So, I thought... hmmm I know of a park with a couple of Geocaches, maybe I can attempt to find one while we are there! After picking up #5 we headed to the park.

Needless to say, all 5 kiddos (mine were at home with dad) seemed to really enjoy it! "Are there any more around here?!" Why, yes!  In fact there is another in THIS park! So off we went. We tried 3 and only found 2, but most of the kids found it fun. 

So today when we picked up #5 again we took a vote and the majority of the kids wanted to go again (this included my kiddos)... so we did! And even the 2 kids that weren't too excited about going ended up getting out of the A/C'd van and helping us search. So they can't hate it THAT much, right?! 

One of the kids really wanted to continue when all the others were done so I made him a deal... I'll be going by tomorrow (when I'm not babysitting) and pick him, and whoever else wants to go, up to go look for another Geocache. :D 

At very least I'm getting the kiddos all out of the house, so I consider that at least a small win!


Tuesday, July 10, 2012

The "More on that later"

I don't know how much everyone knows, but last school year I was working as a lunch lady/classroom assistant. Lunch lady at one charter school that provided lunch to another charter school and then when I was done with that I would go and assist at the second charter school until I got to go to my college classes in the afternoon/evening.

This was good and bad. Good because I worked where my kids were and Turbo could get all day preschool without a fee because I was staff, bad because of the drama between the two schools and because I was on two time cards which meant no benefits even though I was working a lot.

This summer I was supposed to work for the Summer Lunch Program that some schools offer to the community (kids 1-18 get lunch free) like I did last summer, but unfortunately there was some passive aggressiveness crap and my boss at the first charter school forgot/didn't have time to file the paperwork. Yah.... right. I am suspicious about that, but it does me no good to focus on it. Never-the-less I thought I had a summer job until about 2 weeks before "summer" which left me high and dry for finding most seasonal jobs. 

What sucks is that I really needed that job to help make it through the summer. Yes, I don't have a rent/mortgage but I still have debt that came about in various ways... some avoidable and some not (like living until Jer got a job last summer) and also the van payment and the cell phone bill etc. along with the "holy crap I didn't realize how worn out Turbo's shoes were!" and the "I didn't realize that the kids outgrew almost ALL of their summer clothes from last year!" stuff. 

So stressed as I was, finding a job that I could somehow work with watching my kids (because Jer was most likely to be available in the mornings, but then got a promotion ---YEAH!!!--- which meant more regular hours, ie not midnight, but also meant that he wouldn't be around to watch the kiddos who were out of school and who we couldn't afford to pay someone to watch.) and pay me ... because that was needed.... was NOT looking likely. 

Until one of Jer's friends happened to call and talk to him about a money making idea (trying not to be snarky... I don't like my friends trying to sell stuff to me and am always highly suspicious of it) and happened to ask what was up with us. Jer mentioned that he was working at Maverik and that I was home with the kids for the summer... and then his friend asked if I would be willing to watch he and his new wife's kids for them while they worked! :D 

I jumped at it. I could bring my kids, sometimes I would have up to 5 kids (all not my own) to watch, but sometimes less (all the kids are from previous marriages) and it would help us make ends meet!!! 

So now I'm babysitting and watching (can't babysit your own kids, right!?) up to 8 kids during the day and for the most part it is going alright. I am thankful to be able to make ends meet... hopefully... at least until the end of summer when I will only have one of my two jobs to go back to :\ 

Oh, well... we will jump that hurdle when it gets here. 

Monday, July 9, 2012

Hi Der.

Hi.
  I know it's been a really long time since I really blogged. This is for many reasons, not the least of which was/is the fact that when life is hard... well, quite honestly, it's really difficult not to be a Negative Nancy and complain about everything.
  Yes, we are still living with my in-laws, no I'm not very happy about it, yes we have been trying, and yes people who blame those who find themselves in unfortunate circumstances for those circumstances... well, lets just say I want to smack them.
  I'm going to try to start blogging regularly again, mostly due the sinking feeling that by not sharing who I am (ie full of opinions etc) I'm slowly loosing who I am and it really isn't helping with my depression or our life situation.

  So I'll start out easy :D

  My parents took myself and my kids camping this last weekend!!! Unfortunately Jer couldn't go due to work and we missed him, but it was so nice to get out and just forget things for a while. We went to a beautiful place in the mountains in Wyoming. I don't think I could have imagined a place that was more picturesque. Here... let me prove it.


Nope, that's not a painting, and yes we did camp right next to the lake. My dad brought his little boat and took my children fishing (the caught fish!!!),



 and we took a short hike to another lake that was close by too. While one of my children was complainy about it, I think in the end they enjoyed it (which is good... cause honestly I'm thinking hiking is going to be inflicted upon them more often :D


it was a much needed break to say the least!!! If life would have permitted I would have stayed there much longer ignoring it. But alas we came home last night (and unfortunately my kids weren't the best ever on the way home and we ended up with some groundings.... sigh.)

Well, time to get back to trying to make ends meet... the kids I have been watching should be here soon (more on that later).

~April