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If you would like to link to us go right ahead, I do ask though that if you know us in real life that you use my kids blog names if you refer to them. I don't use them in my blog or the title for safety purposes. Thanks so much!
~April

Sunday, July 15, 2012

Grandma Jones

Last night my dad called to tell me that my Grandma J had passed away. This is my dad's mom.

I wasn't very close to my dad's parent's growing up, and honestly we didn't live close to any of my grandparents so it was really my immediate family that I was close to, nevertheless I still remember and loved a lot about my Grandma J.

My grandma loved food storage... almost a little too much (she was human)! She had all sorts of recipes for all sorts of different things and really seamed to love to cook (which I admire because I really hate it lol!). She loved camping and being out in nature. She knew all sorts of songs and nursery rhymes and had the poem "Paul Revere's Ride" memorized and holy CRAP that thing is long, but she had it! She would often exclaim "Good Night!" as a kosher expletive around family and would often pull her hair back into a pony tail with curls around her face (when it was long enough). She loved her religion and clung to it with all her might.

At one point I know she was a concert pianist and I remember as a child watching her type faster than the typewriter could print. She loved children and always had candy in her pocket for the Primary kids... in fact those kids would stop by her house years later just to say "hi" and get a candy :D

The last few years she has had a rough time, be it a broken foot that won't seam to heal, frustrations with her memory, to other medical complications. I know her kids have had disagreements as to what was best for her and that my aunt has taken care of her more and more.

I know my dad has just wanted what was best for her and that at times his siblings disagreed and fought each other and him tooth and nail, but I also know that she was my dad's mom and that I can only imagine the heartache I would feel if my own mom passed away.

My heart aches for him,

I love you dad, I have no idea if there is anything I can do to ease the pain even a little... if there was I would surely do it.

For anyone who doesn't know the poem Pail Revere's Ride I'm including it below.



Paul Revere's Ride

by Henry Wadsworth Longfellow

Listen, my children, and you shall hear
Of the midnight ride of Paul Revere,
On the eighteenth of April, in Seventy-Five:
Hardly a man is now alive 
Who remembers that famous day and year.

He said to his friend, "If the British march
By land or sea from the town to-night,
Hang a lantern aloft in the belfry-arch
Of the North-Church-tower, as a signal-light,--
One if by land, and two if by sea;
And I on the opposite shore will be,
Ready to ride and spread the alarm
Through every Middlesex village and farm,
For the country-folk to be up and to arm."

Then he said "Good night!" and with muffled oar
Silently rowed to the Charlestown shore,
Just as the moon rose over the bay,
Where swinging wide at her moorings lay
The Somerset, British man-of-war:
A phantom ship, with each mast and spar
Across the moon, like a prison-bar,
And a huge black hulk, that was magnified 
By its own reflection in the tide.

Meanwhile, his friend, through alley and street
Wanders and watches with eager ears, 
Till in the silence around him he hears 
The muster of men at the barrack door,
The sound of arms, and the tramp of feet, 
And the measured tread of the grenadiers 
Marching down to their boats on the shore.

Then he climbed to the tower of the church,
Up the wooden stairs, with stealthy tread,
To the belfry-chamber overhead,
And startled the pigeons from their perch
On the sombre rafters, that round him made
Masses and moving shapes of shade,--
By the trembling ladder, steep and tall,
To the highest window in the wall,
Where he paused to listen and look down
A moment on the roofs of the town,
And the moonlight flowing over all.

Beneath, in the churchyard, lay the dead, 
In their night-encampment on the hill, 
Wrapped in silence so deep and still 
That he could hear, like a sentinel's tread, 
The watchful night-wind, as it went 
Creeping along from tent to tent, 
And seeming to whisper, "All is well!" 
A moment only he feels the spell 
Of the place and the hour, and the secret dread 
Of the lonely belfry and the dead; 
For suddenly all his thoughts are bent 
On a shadowy something far away, 
Where the river widens to meet the bay, --
A line of black, that bends and floats 
On the rising tide, like a bridge of boats.

Meanwhile, impatient to mount and ride, 
Booted and spurred, with a heavy stride, 
On the opposite shore walked Paul Revere.
Now he patted his horse's side, 
Now gazed on the landscape far and near, 
Then impetuous stamped the earth, 
And turned and tightened his saddle-girth;
But mostly he watched with eager search 
The belfry-tower of the old North Church, 
As it rose above the graves on the hill, 
Lonely and spectral and sombre and still.
And lo! as he looks, on the belfry's height, 
A glimmer, and then a gleam of light!
He springs to the saddle, the bridle he turns, 
But lingers and gazes, till full on his sight 
A second lamp in the belfry burns!

A hurry of hoofs in a village-street,
A shape in the moonlight, a bulk in the dark, 
And beneath from the pebbles, in passing, a spark 
Struck out by a steed that flies fearless and fleet: 
That was all! And yet, through the gloom and the light, 
The fate of a nation was riding that night; 
And the spark struck out by that steed, in his flight, 
Kindled the land into flame with its heat.

He has left the village and mounted the steep,
And beneath him, tranquil and broad and deep,
Is the Mystic, meeting the ocean tides;
And under the alders, that skirt its edge,
Now soft on the sand, now load on the ledge,
Is heard the tramp of his steed as he rides.

It was twelve by the village clock
When he crossed the bridge into Medford town.
He heard the crowing of the cock, 
And the barking of the farmer's dog, 
And felt the damp of the river-fog,
That rises when the sun goes down.

It was one by the village clock,
When he galloped into Lexington. 
He saw the gilded weathercock 
Swim in the moonlight as he passed, 
And the meeting-house windows, blank and bare, 
Gaze at him with a spectral glare, 
As if they already stood aghast 
At the bloody work they would look upon.

It was two by the village clock,
When be came to the bridge in Concord town. 
He heard the bleating of the flock, 
And the twitter of birds among the trees, 
And felt the breath of the morning breeze
Blowing over the meadows brown.
And one was safe and asleep in his bed
Who at the bridge would be first to fall,
Who that day would be lying dead,
Pierced by a British musket-ball.

You know the rest. In the books you have read,
How the British Regulars fired and fled,--
How the farmers gave them ball for ball,
From behind each fence and farmyard-wall,
Chasing the red-coats down the lane,
Then crossing the fields to emerge again
Under the trees at the turn of the road,
And only pausing to fire and load.

So through the night rode Paul Revere;
And so through the night went his cry of alarm
To every Middlesex village and farm,-- 
A cry of defiance, and not of fear,
A voice in the darkness, a knock at the door,
And a word that shall echo forevermore!
For, borne on the night-wind of the Past,
Through all our history, to the last,
In the hour of darkness and peril and need,
The people will waken and listen to hear
The hurrying hoof-beats of that steed,
And the midnight message of Paul Revere.

Saturday, July 14, 2012

Hiking?

Grandpa J with my kidlets
So after our camping expedition with my parents last weekend I'm seriously considering insisting that my family start hiking. Seriously.

I know I'm out of shape and since I put my gym membership on hold (they STILL haven't finished the larger facility they have been promising for over a year!) I really think that this may be a good way to get into shape while getting my kids involved so that hopefully they can develop healthy lifestyles (and also tolerance for wildlife, bugs, and temperature changes).

I really don't want to have to purchase maps so I started doing a little research myself. The BLM has a short trail not far from here that I think I will drag everyone to... probably tomorrow, if the weather will permit -there is a 50% chance of rain (I really wish they would indicate if it would be heavy or light rain!).

Anywho... we shall see :D

Besides, there ARE some Geocaches on the way... Mwahahaha!

Friday, July 13, 2012

Stupid People *snicker*

I think I need to take a break from Facebook for a while... I am so tired of seeing sound clips that try to sum up the worlds problems and how we should view them in a single line. I'm sorry, no real problem is simple enough to sum up that way. There are always two sides to every story and completely ignoring one of them for convenience is absurd.

I'm great with people disagreeing with me if they can remain civil while we disagree, however during an election year that's a pretty darned rare thing. I don't usually comment on political posts online for just that reason, I'm tired of the ad hominim attacks and people insisting that I don't know what I'm talking about. I happened to foolishly try to disagree on FB today and because it's been so long since someone online has attacked me it really made me mad.

I am not stupid. Yes, I don't know everything... so teach me! Don't tell me to take a class or read a book, cause honestly I'm not going to do that when "you" are being a complete ass about it. In fact, your insistance on it make me LESS likely to do as you suggest because I'm stubborn like that and hate to feel forced into anything.

Grrrr.

George Washington didn't want the American people to section themselves into an "us" and "them" because he felt it would be the downfall of the nation. He was mostly talking about political parties. As a watch how people treat others who disagree with them I have to agree with him... the divisiveness will be the downfall of our nation. We are killing our national spirit from within.

Let see how good I am about staying away from FB for a while... LOL.

Here's some pictures just for fun... cause I felt the post needed some, but didn't have anything that really went along :)





Turbo after he discovered how to take pictures of himself on my Ipod.

Thursday, July 12, 2012

Not much

Today was pretty chill and uneventful so I give you this:

it's a picture taken of Jer and Turbo on June 30th (when my parents town did their fireworks, and so we celebrated then). I have to say... I really like this picture, and if you don't.... well. You can suck it!!! :D

Wednesday, July 11, 2012

Treasure Hunting

I don't know about you, but my kids... they love video games and electronics! They love the Wii, and the PS3, and the 3DS, and the Ipod, and the computer, and anything else with buttons and a blinky screen ... even legos are more exciting than outside! And this is good in the case of not being left behind by technology and hand-eye coordination, BUT, well... lets just say it's not so good for getting out in the sun and exercising. 

It's summer darnit! They need to ride their bike, and run around, and play tag in the backyard, and draw all over the driveway in chalk! I don't expect them to do these types of things every day, but I don't expect a fight when I suggest them (or, let's be honest, when I INSIST that they get OUTSIDE for a change). 

Sooooo I asked my sis (who has amazingly active kiddos) what she would suggest because, honestly, I need to get out too and I would eventually like to end up hiking and backpacking overnight with the family! but there is no hope of this if they continue to be squirmy about any bug (oh. my. goodness. It's a teeny tiny FLY! It won't hurt you!) and about slight variations in temperature! her suggestion?


I tried it with just my kids a few weeks ago but didn't have much luck. We found the Geocache... I just didn't have luck with the complainy-ness of the kidlets. "It's hoooooottttt" (it was warm but geesh, we were only outside for about 20 minutes!), "My legs are tired!" (after walking one block in a subdivision?), "I have to pee!" (We've only been gone from the house for 3 minutes!!!). Mind you this was all from ONE child. Grrrrr.

So I let it slide for a while. 

Then yesterday, as I was babysitting the 5 extra kiddos, I needed to go pick up one of them from summer school. The other kids wanted to go to a park. So, I thought... hmmm I know of a park with a couple of Geocaches, maybe I can attempt to find one while we are there! After picking up #5 we headed to the park.

Needless to say, all 5 kiddos (mine were at home with dad) seemed to really enjoy it! "Are there any more around here?!" Why, yes!  In fact there is another in THIS park! So off we went. We tried 3 and only found 2, but most of the kids found it fun. 

So today when we picked up #5 again we took a vote and the majority of the kids wanted to go again (this included my kiddos)... so we did! And even the 2 kids that weren't too excited about going ended up getting out of the A/C'd van and helping us search. So they can't hate it THAT much, right?! 

One of the kids really wanted to continue when all the others were done so I made him a deal... I'll be going by tomorrow (when I'm not babysitting) and pick him, and whoever else wants to go, up to go look for another Geocache. :D 

At very least I'm getting the kiddos all out of the house, so I consider that at least a small win!


Tuesday, July 10, 2012

The "More on that later"

I don't know how much everyone knows, but last school year I was working as a lunch lady/classroom assistant. Lunch lady at one charter school that provided lunch to another charter school and then when I was done with that I would go and assist at the second charter school until I got to go to my college classes in the afternoon/evening.

This was good and bad. Good because I worked where my kids were and Turbo could get all day preschool without a fee because I was staff, bad because of the drama between the two schools and because I was on two time cards which meant no benefits even though I was working a lot.

This summer I was supposed to work for the Summer Lunch Program that some schools offer to the community (kids 1-18 get lunch free) like I did last summer, but unfortunately there was some passive aggressiveness crap and my boss at the first charter school forgot/didn't have time to file the paperwork. Yah.... right. I am suspicious about that, but it does me no good to focus on it. Never-the-less I thought I had a summer job until about 2 weeks before "summer" which left me high and dry for finding most seasonal jobs. 

What sucks is that I really needed that job to help make it through the summer. Yes, I don't have a rent/mortgage but I still have debt that came about in various ways... some avoidable and some not (like living until Jer got a job last summer) and also the van payment and the cell phone bill etc. along with the "holy crap I didn't realize how worn out Turbo's shoes were!" and the "I didn't realize that the kids outgrew almost ALL of their summer clothes from last year!" stuff. 

So stressed as I was, finding a job that I could somehow work with watching my kids (because Jer was most likely to be available in the mornings, but then got a promotion ---YEAH!!!--- which meant more regular hours, ie not midnight, but also meant that he wouldn't be around to watch the kiddos who were out of school and who we couldn't afford to pay someone to watch.) and pay me ... because that was needed.... was NOT looking likely. 

Until one of Jer's friends happened to call and talk to him about a money making idea (trying not to be snarky... I don't like my friends trying to sell stuff to me and am always highly suspicious of it) and happened to ask what was up with us. Jer mentioned that he was working at Maverik and that I was home with the kids for the summer... and then his friend asked if I would be willing to watch he and his new wife's kids for them while they worked! :D 

I jumped at it. I could bring my kids, sometimes I would have up to 5 kids (all not my own) to watch, but sometimes less (all the kids are from previous marriages) and it would help us make ends meet!!! 

So now I'm babysitting and watching (can't babysit your own kids, right!?) up to 8 kids during the day and for the most part it is going alright. I am thankful to be able to make ends meet... hopefully... at least until the end of summer when I will only have one of my two jobs to go back to :\ 

Oh, well... we will jump that hurdle when it gets here. 

Monday, July 9, 2012

Hi Der.

Hi.
  I know it's been a really long time since I really blogged. This is for many reasons, not the least of which was/is the fact that when life is hard... well, quite honestly, it's really difficult not to be a Negative Nancy and complain about everything.
  Yes, we are still living with my in-laws, no I'm not very happy about it, yes we have been trying, and yes people who blame those who find themselves in unfortunate circumstances for those circumstances... well, lets just say I want to smack them.
  I'm going to try to start blogging regularly again, mostly due the sinking feeling that by not sharing who I am (ie full of opinions etc) I'm slowly loosing who I am and it really isn't helping with my depression or our life situation.

  So I'll start out easy :D

  My parents took myself and my kids camping this last weekend!!! Unfortunately Jer couldn't go due to work and we missed him, but it was so nice to get out and just forget things for a while. We went to a beautiful place in the mountains in Wyoming. I don't think I could have imagined a place that was more picturesque. Here... let me prove it.


Nope, that's not a painting, and yes we did camp right next to the lake. My dad brought his little boat and took my children fishing (the caught fish!!!),



 and we took a short hike to another lake that was close by too. While one of my children was complainy about it, I think in the end they enjoyed it (which is good... cause honestly I'm thinking hiking is going to be inflicted upon them more often :D


it was a much needed break to say the least!!! If life would have permitted I would have stayed there much longer ignoring it. But alas we came home last night (and unfortunately my kids weren't the best ever on the way home and we ended up with some groundings.... sigh.)

Well, time to get back to trying to make ends meet... the kids I have been watching should be here soon (more on that later).

~April